WTH..

Why masscom? Do you know it has no future for you? It's mostly taken by the malay students. Why not engineering or accounts? Or something like lawyer is better though. you know she's earning a lot in accounting? In the other hand, he's suffering on his works and has no time always, do you want to be like him? And yet she's earning almost the same amount in a specific and a shorter time. He is also studying in medical course and very hardworking with his studies. Please think properly before you make your choice. And how's your german studies? Not going for engineering anymore? They're still better than your masscom course you know. Career is not all about interest or anything, you don't take the course because you just have the interest in it. Do you see him working so hard and don't have the time to spend or going somewhere for as in like vacation?

And what if i take lawyer course for an example? you can't cause your result is not good enough. And you're forgetful also so for all the test you may find it hard to score great marks. 'Actually i've the credits to go for most course and my results are moderately and not ''bad''.' When the sentence 'lawyer and masscom can't even compete', it was effing hurt. It show that masscom is not a good or for a 'nerd' subject to study. It's simply for low-educated students.

Why am I always treated these way. Why can't you guys let me be who i am or let me just decide it myself. One of the reason i study masscom it's because i've interest in it and it's fun for a person like me which hate to be in an office or sitting on a particular spot for long. He's working so hard and the company is well-managed now, is it effing wrong for me to help him out so when there's trouble, we can face it together.

I feel happier these way. I don't fuck care what people think as long i'm happy with them. I'm not happy if i get really rich? Nor am i happy to be popular or my status're high? I've my own freaking plans and i know what i'm actually doing. People seems to misuse me or misunderstanding me, they just want me to be the person on what they like me to be. I'm not your home-made robot you know. I've my own feelings and all i want to do is to make them happy and just enough amount of money to make them proud and happy together that's all.
tqtq..

depression

After for such a long time, you're still in my thought even i tried to forget for what had happened. It really disturbed me cause bit by bit just pop out in my mind all of a sudden everytime. Can't imagine for all the bad things i've done, you still forgive me without me noticing it. After it ends, i tried to just play around with others and notice there's no other that can replace you. These is really a big lesson for me for treating you like this cause i know i can't buy the past. I feel so stupid for the choice i took and i admit everything feels wrong till now. People seems to misunderstand why am i not serious enough it's just simply because i don't wanna have the same mistake happen to me again. Even i'm so that forgetful, the 'happening' between didn't just vanish like that, but it still remain in my mind till now. The time we're at the playground, in school, shop, ice-cream moments, having McD's, and even our 1st time in cinema together. There's even once you felt angry but i didn't help to notice it when i brought you to pool with my friends. I know it sounds awkward and childish but i really do wanna express my feelings here, and i really enjoyed every second and surprisingly, i'm not faking it. Thank God she became my friend again and we're now close enough, for me. Still love her much and care for her, but in a different way you know. :) Thanks for accepting me again cause i really don't feel worth it to lose you. You and your family had really helped me a lot. In a negative way, i'm really a bastard cause i'm easily persuaded and thought of changing style all the time, if you know what i mean.

i don't mind if you read these by chance, i just wanna express my feelings and everything to fulfill my depressionNESS. hah. There's just something that you won't understand why that happened. Really happy for what we are now. Love you always.

wooooo, finally blogging again. maybe cause all the fun and shits are back so feel quite high to blog about random stuffs. realised i start to get addicted in choosing high heels for girls cause it's so effing fun, too bad i cant wear one. yish.. love to buy shoes for myself though, got a high-cut shoe recently but dont know how to match it with the clothes yet, cause that shoe it's just for fun, hah.. sadly still cant find a suitable converse shoe yet..
went steamboat at my relatives house, watching movies, incoming trips, plans, etc.... wooosh!! damn gao fun sial.. going for masscom july intake maybe in taylors, so i think it's gonna be stress the year through but i cant wait for it..

the grand's are back

the king and the queen

They're finally back as usual in every starting of the year to celebrate cny in Malaysia. Got my hot wheels from them for collection and 2 and1 shoes for my bro.. weird right. I ask for it anyway. Though they kept wanting us to shop some clothes but we're too busy working and have no time. AND everyday get my very own fresh complaining like 'i dont like your hair, it's too long', 'if you love me, take off the piercing'. Haha, it's just damn crazy lah. Anyway, i know you love me that's why you're doing these. And the best part? wearing long sleeve the whole time when they're around. You know why. O.<

the Wong family went to Fullhouse for lunch on Saturday and i love my jeans which dad bought after makan. mwahah.. Wrapping bouquet the whole day cause tomorrow is valentine and you know, it's cny also. Dinner at west lake garden and went back early to sent the grand's back.

things just simply change when they're here, bit special, and bit tiring..

cash or money?

Chun? though it's artificial but i wish it's real. For my future sake, haiz sad.

21st of February is coming which i can feel my freedom again and my normal life. No more long hours of working everyday, no more walking around or standing whole day. Instead, stone around, shopping, skate, and start my college life, How nice. Will start to clean up the floral market area after valentine so might finish earlier and get my salary paid. Conclusion, hunting for new stuff and again, start college.

that's all for now, gong xi fa chai xin nian kuai le xiao chai jing pao. haha!

random pictures from genting

no turning back

Remember what mum told me last time about enjoying the fullest in high school, now i realise it's simply freaking hard to cope up with the life after it ends. Miss the day that we get to meet friends evrday, run around in school, not stressing other stuff but just study and activities. Anyway, sometime it feels nice also despite of not wearing uniform, going to school that early, attending history class & having a suckish canteen.

mwhaah, now's the best part, plan to get quite alot of stuff after my salary is out next month. A new shoe for mum & myself, new clothes, new phiten, hmm, i guess new wallet. haah i wish i can get those and safe some also for my emergency use. or maybe if it's possible, a canon camera. hee. effing cant wait to know how much i work for these whole busy month.

and yeah, there's a floral market at pyramid blue dome, do drop by a visit if you're free. tchuss.