WTH..

Why masscom? Do you know it has no future for you? It's mostly taken by the malay students. Why not engineering or accounts? Or something like lawyer is better though. you know she's earning a lot in accounting? In the other hand, he's suffering on his works and has no time always, do you want to be like him? And yet she's earning almost the same amount in a specific and a shorter time. He is also studying in medical course and very hardworking with his studies. Please think properly before you make your choice. And how's your german studies? Not going for engineering anymore? They're still better than your masscom course you know. Career is not all about interest or anything, you don't take the course because you just have the interest in it. Do you see him working so hard and don't have the time to spend or going somewhere for as in like vacation?

And what if i take lawyer course for an example? you can't cause your result is not good enough. And you're forgetful also so for all the test you may find it hard to score great marks. 'Actually i've the credits to go for most course and my results are moderately and not ''bad''.' When the sentence 'lawyer and masscom can't even compete', it was effing hurt. It show that masscom is not a good or for a 'nerd' subject to study. It's simply for low-educated students.

Why am I always treated these way. Why can't you guys let me be who i am or let me just decide it myself. One of the reason i study masscom it's because i've interest in it and it's fun for a person like me which hate to be in an office or sitting on a particular spot for long. He's working so hard and the company is well-managed now, is it effing wrong for me to help him out so when there's trouble, we can face it together.

I feel happier these way. I don't fuck care what people think as long i'm happy with them. I'm not happy if i get really rich? Nor am i happy to be popular or my status're high? I've my own freaking plans and i know what i'm actually doing. People seems to misuse me or misunderstanding me, they just want me to be the person on what they like me to be. I'm not your home-made robot you know. I've my own feelings and all i want to do is to make them happy and just enough amount of money to make them proud and happy together that's all.
tqtq..

depression

After for such a long time, you're still in my thought even i tried to forget for what had happened. It really disturbed me cause bit by bit just pop out in my mind all of a sudden everytime. Can't imagine for all the bad things i've done, you still forgive me without me noticing it. After it ends, i tried to just play around with others and notice there's no other that can replace you. These is really a big lesson for me for treating you like this cause i know i can't buy the past. I feel so stupid for the choice i took and i admit everything feels wrong till now. People seems to misunderstand why am i not serious enough it's just simply because i don't wanna have the same mistake happen to me again. Even i'm so that forgetful, the 'happening' between didn't just vanish like that, but it still remain in my mind till now. The time we're at the playground, in school, shop, ice-cream moments, having McD's, and even our 1st time in cinema together. There's even once you felt angry but i didn't help to notice it when i brought you to pool with my friends. I know it sounds awkward and childish but i really do wanna express my feelings here, and i really enjoyed every second and surprisingly, i'm not faking it. Thank God she became my friend again and we're now close enough, for me. Still love her much and care for her, but in a different way you know. :) Thanks for accepting me again cause i really don't feel worth it to lose you. You and your family had really helped me a lot. In a negative way, i'm really a bastard cause i'm easily persuaded and thought of changing style all the time, if you know what i mean.

i don't mind if you read these by chance, i just wanna express my feelings and everything to fulfill my depressionNESS. hah. There's just something that you won't understand why that happened. Really happy for what we are now. Love you always.

wooooo, finally blogging again. maybe cause all the fun and shits are back so feel quite high to blog about random stuffs. realised i start to get addicted in choosing high heels for girls cause it's so effing fun, too bad i cant wear one. yish.. love to buy shoes for myself though, got a high-cut shoe recently but dont know how to match it with the clothes yet, cause that shoe it's just for fun, hah.. sadly still cant find a suitable converse shoe yet..
went steamboat at my relatives house, watching movies, incoming trips, plans, etc.... wooosh!! damn gao fun sial.. going for masscom july intake maybe in taylors, so i think it's gonna be stress the year through but i cant wait for it..

the grand's are back

the king and the queen

They're finally back as usual in every starting of the year to celebrate cny in Malaysia. Got my hot wheels from them for collection and 2 and1 shoes for my bro.. weird right. I ask for it anyway. Though they kept wanting us to shop some clothes but we're too busy working and have no time. AND everyday get my very own fresh complaining like 'i dont like your hair, it's too long', 'if you love me, take off the piercing'. Haha, it's just damn crazy lah. Anyway, i know you love me that's why you're doing these. And the best part? wearing long sleeve the whole time when they're around. You know why. O.<

the Wong family went to Fullhouse for lunch on Saturday and i love my jeans which dad bought after makan. mwahah.. Wrapping bouquet the whole day cause tomorrow is valentine and you know, it's cny also. Dinner at west lake garden and went back early to sent the grand's back.

things just simply change when they're here, bit special, and bit tiring..

cash or money?

Chun? though it's artificial but i wish it's real. For my future sake, haiz sad.

21st of February is coming which i can feel my freedom again and my normal life. No more long hours of working everyday, no more walking around or standing whole day. Instead, stone around, shopping, skate, and start my college life, How nice. Will start to clean up the floral market area after valentine so might finish earlier and get my salary paid. Conclusion, hunting for new stuff and again, start college.

that's all for now, gong xi fa chai xin nian kuai le xiao chai jing pao. haha!

random pictures from genting

no turning back

Remember what mum told me last time about enjoying the fullest in high school, now i realise it's simply freaking hard to cope up with the life after it ends. Miss the day that we get to meet friends evrday, run around in school, not stressing other stuff but just study and activities. Anyway, sometime it feels nice also despite of not wearing uniform, going to school that early, attending history class & having a suckish canteen.

mwhaah, now's the best part, plan to get quite alot of stuff after my salary is out next month. A new shoe for mum & myself, new clothes, new phiten, hmm, i guess new wallet. haah i wish i can get those and safe some also for my emergency use. or maybe if it's possible, a canon camera. hee. effing cant wait to know how much i work for these whole busy month.

and yeah, there's a floral market at pyramid blue dome, do drop by a visit if you're free. tchuss.

D & M

hello baby baby, wasssuup, damn stone shit. I'm so thinking about my dad n mum deeply right now maybe cause i've been a bad boy and i can't return all the debt that they've paid for me almost for 18 years. Alright i'm not being pervert here just saying the truth. And now i can pay for part of my stuff, proud gile sial. Thought after school will be freaking enjoy but who knows, it's like walking in a history museum, walking and stoning around without any reason. what am i doing? hello.. hello.. wasssuuupp..... crazy. damn long tak skate sudah sial, steel is gonna be rust!! sorry sorry..

anyway, went countdown on christmas then genting then came back then sleep for one day then countdown for new year then thought can go school again but end up working. -.- Genting was kinda boring, but but because of the weather, everybody go crazy, except me i guess?? they strip their shirts in front of the public and do cat walking, parkour around, eye-balling girls, talk to girls, never get much sleep, laugh without any reason, get the 1st pee in hotel to open ceremonykan the room, etc. all this happened but one of the main reason we went there is to go to the outdoor park, but tak jadi cause too misty. everything was so freaking expensive up there, mineral rm 2.50? flovoured drinks more than rm5? food at least rm10? wtf?

till here, will upload the pictures in facebook next time cause i'm lazy.. hello hello... bye bye...

holiday end

i feel holiday just ends so fast because of the busy work, but still finally i got my off day today. Going to genting tomorrow and hope it'll be a crazy trip. hah
i'll just let some of the pictures to do the talking about my holi-days.

bryan & andy's birthday and after spm celebration..

during 'high/top-form' time..

hotel main lobby..xD

outside function..

upgraded-shaped balloon..

artist'S..

after work..

yuki..

enjoying it

spm is ending by 3 more days, and i cant wait already. it's like some crazy stuff is gonna happen soon. cant believe that i'm actually enjoying it. going out here n there, but still study like crazy like i never studied before. plan even starts after my last exam day which is tuesday, party!!
that's all for now, chiaoz..

spm

tomorrow spm, good luck to all fuckers..

ftw..

shit things just happening around, i guess it's just karma. i dont understand why it all happens in the same time, somehow it just do. she doesnt believe me much anymore just because she thinks i mixed with the wrong peoples and been a bad person in school, others accusing me without me doing anything wrong.. why can't they fucking find the truth 1st before doing something, i think they're just free enough and have no other stuffs to do..
And bro is being lazy when parents need some help at sunway, he just cant think of how hard they try to earn a living for us, all he can think is just playing around and enjoy himself spending money and time.. can't even believe that i cut the wrong hairstyle and ended up wasting 3 times of cutting it total rm70, and now turn out i'm a freaking bald guy.. and you know what, all these happen when spm is around the corner..
i'm gonna be dead, mwahahahha!! go crazy man..

yeAH, welcome to my emo blog..

'hallo'ween..

everything is crazy during Halloween cause was not plan properly nor expecting it.. 1st went for ice skate with some of my crazy friends there.. got back kk in the evening and have dinner with the 'original' friends.. something that i neither we didnt expect is, go for basketball..

happy night..

i can hardly remember when's the last time i stayed in a hotel and yeah, finally 3 days 2 nights in this awesome place called........ sunway ......... haha i know, wtf right.. it's just sort of like one of my best place to live in..

aint going to aar's concert cause too busy and need to do some revision.. but there's a concert of akon also on the 24th in sunway, may be excused for this one..:)

crazy day..

it has been days/weeks didnt update my blog cause felt lazy to write and dont have the time yet.. i cant cope with the time cause it's too fast.. like seriously, weeks was like days, and months was also like days.. haha, wtf.. it's quite a stressful thing to me cause exam is around the corner and i have to catch up all my studies and revision..

anyway, there's friends that i could still hang out with sometimes to release some of the study stress.. obviously, i'm not the pure study person.. i just do what i'm suppose to do.. so yeah, went morning ball with friends and ate lunch somewhere.. hanged out at snooker place and went swimming with them.. start to have drivers around cause most of them passed their license.. haha kiding.. except for one of our pity friend here name fishy which born in dec, so he have to wait.. got some of their bathing photos and will upload it soon cause i didnt bring out my cable, was in the hotel.. please dont get me wrong, i aint gay kind of shit..

till then, auf wiedersehen und gute nacht friends.. bumsen dich shaun, gay bit*h..:)

hairstyles

tattoo designs

just some ideas for my tattoos..

boom boom boom

it was actually a boring day yesterday, chee houw and bryan went sunway to help me out at the hotel before going shopping.. met shaun there when having lunch then started window shopping around..

anyway, got the arthur's day ticket last minute for rm103.. the ticket we're gonna buy suppost to be rm60 only cause one guy selling tickets illegally outside the place.. he was caught by the police and sent to station when we're bout to buy it..fuckin crazy ass.. was so desperate of it so we even bought it for a higher price to go in so yeah.. even lost our hope on going in cause of the age limit but get to sneak in lastly though..

it was effing awesome and we didnt regreted going in though we listened to some fuck'up local band for the 1st 2 hours which is already 10pm.. they finally showed up and it was like evrbody going crazy screaming to death.. william is so freaking cool when he's playing solo with his dj set.. the remix was really much better than going to a club.. not forgetting fergie like seriously, she's really fuckin hot..

cant wait for the all american reject concert also.. i got 2 tickets now and i dont know what to do with it.. anyone who really cant get the ticket or really desperate of going, you can buy it from me.. it's not that expensive?? haha

frustration..

i just hate people scolding without really knowing the truth, cause you cant really tell them what really happen and they won't just simply believe it.. is it even hard to ask nicely before scolding?? i think it gets you more angry if you're scolding without any reason and please think of the person's feeling ok.. i'm just doing it occasionally cause of the crowd.. i know it's bad but i know my own limit, can't you at least have some trust in me?? i know some of my friends are over the limit sometimes but they're still my friends, i can't just leave them and change a new surrounding cause it's really fuck'up to leave it just like that aft years of friendship.. i regreted on losing the person i really ever love and i'm terrified that i could lose you also.. i rather die than staying in an untrusted life.. so all you can do is just trust me and understand me more..

i know exam is coming and i know it's call the spm which is one of the most important exam in life.. i cant really fail it cause from the family tradition no one fail before on their big exam.. so it gets me more stress when he told me that and ask me whether i can still continue my studies or not cause i'm still hanging around sometimes.. all i want is just getting some A's to make them proud but to them, it's good enough if i can just pass all the subject, what it means by that anyway?? though my random mood and distractions is getting worse but i'm gonna fucking proof that i could do even better than passing the subjects.. if i dont, i will work hard to earn a living but not beggars that're gifted with hands and legs and begging for money to buy cigarretes, assholes..

people that dont know me much can just fuck off..

pictures..

these pictures are randomly taken on busy function in the hotel..cause i'm kinda high that time suddenly..

part-timers working on an arch..

dad n mum.. mum's weird face..

yeahhh, it's mum again..

cam-whoring..

getting high!!